DeniseRoss

OMG!!! My in-laws are coming tomorrow and i am STRESSED!!!  I am cleaning like a freak because the cleaning nazi is coming, lol. My mother in law is insane when it comes to clean, ever hear of complusive, anal, whatever?? Well when i get stressed i eat. I am really trying to not eat, i am keeping my hands busy cleaning. My husbend is mommas boy and i am the threat. i have that on my shoulders too.  so i am just venting!!! i am back up to the heaviest i have been in a long time and i am miserable. I am looking at today as a new day and to just keep busy so i dont eat. I need to start finding something to keep me busy. maybe a hobby. once my OUTlaws leave, lol, i will be on a hunt. well i feel better. thanks for listening.  have a great day friends!!!!

Denise

i have been on a break for awhile. been down and eating and just not wanting to  think about diets!!! man my life is comsumed with thoughts of dieting. crazY!!!! well, no more!! i am going to try and get out of this insanity. i am going to eat whatever but less.  more fruit and veggies, and  really tyr and workout everyday, even just to go for a walk. no more obsessing!! i am losing my mind thinking about it all the time. why cant i just eat when i am hungry and pick choices that are good for me and exercise? oh yea, i can!!! so i will!!!!!!

ok todays a new day and i am going to eat better and go to the gym. I need to have at least one good day under my belt then i feel strong enough to keep going. I always blow it at nite. that needs to stop!!!!! I am off from work and i plan on watching m calories today, staying under 1200 and i am going to the gym today to take a pilates stretch class. i am excited. so off to day 1 and i will try and stop eating at 7 pm tonite!!!

Denise

why cant i get a grip on this??? i do good all day then i get home from work and its like food fest!!!! it sucks!! i wish so much that my appitite would die!!! i want  so much to go back on my diet pills from the dr but they only work for awhile then i am right back where i started.  trust me i have a library of diet books in my room and none of them have helped me. and dont anyone tell me just exercise and eat less, whatever!!  tried that too!!! i wish i could go to the dr and tell him to crawl into my brain and turn off the eating button. theres gotta be a trick to this. does anyone have any pointers?? what does everyone here do that has lost weight and kept it off.  i want some help before i really go insane. i keep saying tomorrow is a new day and then it turns into a new day of EATIN!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!

Denise

I just wanted to tell everyone thanks for being there for me and i hope everyone has a great day!!! I wish they had a chat room here so we could come chat with each other when we needed each other. cool idea huh? well i asked Dr marc about it, no response yet. well take care everyone!!!!

Denise

i had a really bad weekend. I fought with my husbend all weekend. over stupid things and it always esclates to this horrible fight and we say bad things to each other and then he drinks and i eat. it sucks!!!! I was doing so good all week and then whamo it all goes down the toilet. i hate it!!!! i wish we could talk without fighting. i really dont know how much more i can take. sometimes i would rather be alone. why is life so hard sometimes?? well i guess i vented enough. thanks for listening. tomorrow is a new day. maybe it will be better.

Denise

omg i made it to day 2!!! no binge, no overeating!!! its been so long since i made it through 2 days. i have to give credit to all you new friends, you all gave me strength. i am up and going for my walk this morn and i plan on being a healthy eater today again and what has really helped is no eating after 7 pm, thats been the hardest thing to stop. but i have fought it and i come here and read blogs and write in the forums, it helps me alot. i wish they had chat, we could come here and talk. well everyone have a great day and day 3 here i come!!!!!

I finally got on trak today, day 1!!!! I walked for an hour this morning and i ate alot better, no binge!!! Biggest loser is on tonite, maybe that gave me hope, lol. I am going for day 2 tomorrow and i am going to stay strong!!!!!

Denise

yesterday i was such a good girl till 6 pm. everynite at 6 i blow it!!!  it wears me out!!!! so, today is a new day and my goals for today are to go to the gym this morning and do cardio and weights then come home and clean out my closet, its a mess, i am throwing out clothes i dont wear and making room for new smaller sized clothes, then i am going to eat good all day and at 7 pm no more food!!!!!!!!!!!! no more nite eating!!!!!! hope everyone has a great day!!!!!

Denise

well i kinda had a bad week. i ate really bad and i didnt workout very much. I guess i have hit bottom. i am up 3 pds and i am really struggling with what to do. I know what to do, eat less and exercise, but i just cant get myself in that mode.  I just cant get motivated to do a damn thing. i bought oreos yesterday and last nite ate like a freak. I am missing intimacy from my husbend and i know its because i have gained weight, i am finaicially broke and its getting worse, everybody is hurting finanically and its hurting my business. I am just worn out, really low, my lowest. so, i am off to work this morning, gotta work till 5. and then come home and watch my husbend ignore me. yea!! NOT!!!!!  so maybe my daughter and i will go to the movies. i need a laugh. have a great day!!!!!! thanks for letting me vent!!!!

Denise